Photographs

"Here's a little story I've gotta tell Bout this boy I know so well Back in the day was cool and all Fell in love, I fell in love Thought he was the one for me Other boys I could not see And look what happened to our love I'm like how could it be? It should have been me and you It could have been you and me Boy you broke my heart and now I'm standing there It should have been me and you It could have been you and me Now all I got are these photographs All I've got, all I've got All I've got are these photographs All I've got, all I've got Is nothing without you, you, you Got nothing without you, you, you Got nothing without you"

I remember a time when I could only see myself as Mrs. You.....I've dreamed about it countless nights. Over the course of time a lot has changed, myself included. Sometimes I wonder if I've outgrown you, as much as I would like to grow old with you. In my mind, you are the perfect man, rather it be for someone else or for me in the far future who knows. You may not care what I think or how I feel, but my feelings haven't changed since the day we met, especially not since you stood beside me instead of behind me.
Things happened on both of our ends to cause us to end in destruction, but for some reason we keep finding each other. Not sure if you keep running into your past like that , but you are the only one in my past that I run into like this. I kinda feel like I keep making attempts to communicate with you. Maybe so......so maybe it's not just by chance that we keep running into each other, it's because I keep initiating it. I try and wait until I know that I am over you before I make contact and as soon as I develop feelings I draw away and disappear again. Revolving cycle.
So of course here I am developing feelings again.......but not as strong as before. What's funny is that I want to relearn you all over again and learn to love you like I did before but stronger to not allow me to make the same mistakes that I made in the past. With time we shall see where things go.
I've debated getting the tattoo covered and have finally come to the conclusion that I am not. I made a decision to get it and I am not ashamed of what it represents. It doesn't matter if "we" are never again, I hold you close to my heart.
I want the both of us to be happy regardless of who its with or without. We've both endured a lot and I think we deserve happiness regardless of the form that it comes in. I will probably not be able to love anyone like I loved you but then again who knows, maybe I will. Only we can determine what's in our future by what we do in the present. So now that that's out in the open, I can free my heart of the icebox that it once resided in.

"All I got are these photographs.....nothing without you"